It takes hands to build a house, but only hearts can build a home.

Author Unknown

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Week 2 Day 4 - Summer Bible Study

Clay is molded into vessels, and because of the space where there is nothing, you can carry water. Space is carved out from a wall, and because of the place where there is nothing, you can receive light. Be empty, and you will remain full...

It is very much easier to give than to receive. When we give we are usually strong and in charge. Sometimes we have to be brought to our knees in order to receive. Events and circumstances of life take over and empty us out. Things like extended illness or divorce, or a loved one's death. When we cannot stand on our own strength, we are being readied to receive. When we are receptive many things such gifts of deeper understanding and a stronger union with God can occur.

At first we may not be receptive, it may frighten us or challenge us. Eventually we learn how wonderful it is to receive and we become more open to receive. At the heart of all the gifts is the treasure of Divine Love, poured out into our emptied, readied hearts.

Scripture: Psalm 81
Open your mouth wide and I will fill it...
I would feed you with the finest of wheat
and with honey from the rock
I would satisfy you

At the time of my darling husbands death he had been without work for over a year. We had 5 children at home and 2 away at college. I worked but in a parochial school making half what other secretaries made - certainly not enough to support a family. Many loving friends from church and school made sure we had a very good Thanksgiving that year. Two days after Thanksgiving my husband died of a massive heart attack. My other half of me was cut off. I had no money in the bank. The unemployment check laying on the table couldn't be cashed by me.
I was totally emptied out.

With out my faith, I don't know how I would have gone on. Family and friends stood by us and people from church supported us that first month. We got so many condolence cards , and everyother one had a $5, a$10 or a $20 in it. I can't begin to express how I felt. I cried, I was so thankful. After that , we began to receive S.S. for the kids and things got a little better. I still had to sell our house and downsize. My youngest son still doesn't care much for pancakes. You see oatmeal and pancakes are the cheapest breakfasts you can fix.A box of cereal costs a lot more. Especially when your feeding 5 growning children. Thankfully the two away at school had room and board provided there.

We found every way we could to save money. I have a better job now and I can support myself pretty comfortably. The kids are all grown and all but 2 graduated from college (they literally put themselves through with very little help from me.)
One of the two non-graduates has a great job without a degree and the other is in the Navy. They've all done very well and God has been sooo very good to me and to them.

Trust in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart - Psalm 37:4

When I was emptied - I was filled .

Gracious Giver you have so much that you want to us to let go of our fears, misgivings and doubts. May we be more open to the out pouring of your love.
Today, when others offer help, I will receive it graciously and with gratitude.
'On Ya' - ma

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